Big Plans and Gideon
Foreword: If you’re gonna TL;DR this, cool. God has blessed me immeasurably, and I am eternally grateful. These last 6 months have been a transformation. There have been some happenings in my life that required me to keep a tight lid, but I wanted to share…
Yesterday a man I’ve seen but never known looked me in the eyes, put his hand on my knee, and told me “God has big plans for you. Have you been told that before?” The truth is yes…God told me to stay at my old job when I wanted to quick, work my butt off, and I have been blessed with a new one. God has reminded me, blessed me, and shown his grace and his love but I struggle to remember in tough times.
It’s barely been a week at my new job and I’m nervous. Of failing, of not being good enough, of not being popular and fitting in. I’ve been stressed, self-conscious, and frustrated because my coworkers are amazing, smart, and witty. Intimidating to say the least.
One of my Bible study books interestingly interpreted the story of Gideon:
Then the angel of the Lord told Gideon that God was going to use him to take out the Midianites. Gideon didn’t believe a word of it. So the Lord told Gideon “Go in the strength you have… Am I not sending you?” (Judges 6:14)
Now, that was a confusing command to Gideon in the midst of his frustrations. But that’s usually the way the Lord speak to us. When we’re down in a pit. He almost never begins with the thing that’s bothering us the most. […] The Lord wasn’t speaking to Gideon about where he was as much as He was pointing out where Gideon was going to be. And that was crucial information, because only a sense of destiny will enable us to be people of integrity when the tough times come.
[…] But that’s the point, isn’t it? God challenged Gideon to understand God’s purpose in the midst of his frustration.
6 months ago my life was completely different. I used to be afraid of kids and now I’m teaching them weekly. I’ve learned more about who I am and why I am the way I am, which isn’t always easy. New situations, new people, and most importantly new and renewed relationships. The most real and fulfilling relationships of my life.
God is challenging me because He believes I can handle it. And I won’t let Him down. God is challenging me to become the man I need to be. And I have to. His love, His grace, and His mercy (as Gus says) I am working to accept, and by accepting and obeying do I allow the blessings in.
I’m not here to convince you or sell you anything. I’m not perfect and have made mistakes (and still making mistakes). I just have my story. And if you’re willing to listen, I’d love to tell you sometime. He has big plans for each of us and He has changed my life for the better; maybe He can transform yours.